i’ve always hated the part about the welcome ceremony of exchange programs. i think it’s the most superficial part of all. perhaps i am just being too biased after since i was kind of put off by my cheenapok buddy’s stinking attitude. the point of pinning the badge and exchanging gifts? it’s just so superficial. the significance of a badge and the exchange of gifts! knowing that their gifts are probably made in china and will catch fire anytime. perhaps to cut it short, i really despise such stuffs. it’s really a good waste of my time. that stupid speech, it sounds so flowery and fake. and it sounds so stupid and retarded. can’t you see it’s just a whole shit of politically correct stuffs that everyone wants to hear?
so, i skipped the first half of netball to seek help. i thank god for your presence. you have never made me feel demoralised or stupid or lose my confidence. somehow, after some talking and thinking, i see the big picture. i thank your patience and your ability to pinpoint my mistakes by giving me questions to think about what i have just said and think deeper each time. i may not be the smartest, i may not be the best, but i really appreciate you spending 1.5hrs today, for teaching and a casual talk. i’m thankful that there is at least an adult out there who uh, believes in me. i will do my best. not for next monday, but the end of the year.
