i’ve always hated the part about the welcome ceremony of exchange programs. i think it’s the most superficial part of all. perhaps i am just being too biased after since i was kind of put off by my cheenapok buddy’s stinking attitude. the point of pinning the badge and exchanging gifts? it’s just so superficial. the significance of a badge and the exchange of gifts! knowing that their gifts are probably made in china and will catch fire anytime. perhaps to cut it short, i really despise such stuffs. it’s really a good waste of my time. that stupid speech, it sounds so flowery and fake. and it sounds so stupid and retarded. can’t you see it’s just a whole shit of politically correct stuffs that everyone wants to hear?

so, i skipped the first half of netball to seek help. i thank god for your presence. you have never made me feel demoralised or stupid or lose my confidence. somehow, after some talking and thinking, i see the big picture. i thank your patience and your ability to pinpoint my mistakes by giving me questions to think about what i have just said and think deeper each time. i may not be the smartest, i may not be the best, but i really appreciate you spending 1.5hrs today, for teaching and a casual talk. i’m thankful that there is at least an adult out there who uh, believes in me. i will do my best. not for next monday, but the end of the year.

this blog is held to commemorate the first chemistry-related biology practical in year6. well, i kind of feel mean when i make demeaning remarks about your pronunciation especially when i am your biology rep. but i suppose it’s all in the name of fun. i will refrain from mentioning anything about apple-toe-sis and any other word from now on.

right. anyway i needed another source besides that other account to talk about politically incorrect stuffs.

it’s like, wee hours of the morning. slept at 8pm, woke up at 1215am. studied math and came online. i can’t find a more dedicated and uh, responsible person than you, seriously. it’s my fault for not paying attention during most lectures and tutorials (but i still don’t know why i can understand the lectures but not know how to do the tutorial questions) with the test around the corner, you have kindly agreed to help me with all three topics from scratch. i mean, you aren’t obliged to anyway. look at biology, someone was irritated like hell when asked to repeat the concept of attenuation. i guess, now that you’re helping, i’ll be pressured to achieve some kind of grades. a decent pass is all that i hope for.

chinese lunar new year is around the corner. the egg rolls that the teachers have made tasted good, considering that it’s not for sale. but seriously, i think the dhs dolls should be scraped away. that was the main point of students eating as many egg rolls as they were allowed– to see if they could win a pair of dolls. and also, it is an unnecessary waste of money. having said that, 18th birthday is also around the corner. this time, it really feels awkward, to be not asking for any presents even though somewhere in my heart, i may be dying for something that i want like a new pair of spectacles with higher powered lenses so i won’t have to squint when birds fly past me.

it’s just the feeling that one gets when one is about to die, like wanting to spend your precious once-a-day-in-365.25daysto do something that you’ve always wanted to do but somehow never been able to get those things done. well, i guess i might be somewhat done for, with A’Levels drawing nearer as each day passes. you wouldn’t want to believe that january is just gone like that. oh dear.

money is the root of all evil. why?